ramadhan, raya & stuff

First thing first. Ramadhan had gone by this year. taqaballahu minna wa minkum:) I have to admit. it's not the best so far but I think it changes me to a better me.a lot actually. Next is raya!! (is the exclamation mark necessary?haha) I hope that everybody had a happy eid although i didn't. no need for the explanation. My mind has not been in a stable conditon lately. Especially after raya n so on. That's why I didn't write any posts before. I'm afraid I'll be writing unnecessary things n thoughts. This post doesn't have a specific title because there are so many things inside my head right now.  I'm pretty...

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Tarbiyah

Oh.beza rupanya berada bersama dgn mereka yg mempunyai tarbiyah. hari ini, baruku sedar akan hakikat i...

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Marah

Marah. Is there any normal human being on earth who haven't felt it before? I doubt so. Mungkin kdg2 kita terlepas pandang betapa besarnya or dalamnya kesan marah kpd seseorg. Kita pun sndiri terasa sakitnya hati bila kna mrh x bertempat. right? Yes, we can forgive but it is not easy to forget as scars just don't dissapear as fast as the pain does. We always heard that 'sabar itu separuh drpd keimanan'. separuh.half.one over two.that's a big portion isn't it? Imam Bukhari ada meriwayatkan, Abu Hurairah menceritakan.. Satu hari datang seorang pemuda kepada Rasulullah s.a.w dan berkata "Wahai Rasulullah, berikan aku nasihat" Rasulullah...

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test??

math test!! seriously, it's not cool. not for me at least. hanya diri yg tahu betapa geramnya hati ini bila 2 soalan x mampu dijawab huhu. ironic much. but then it made me think of something else baru 2 soalan test math. dh gelabah mcm it's the end of the world mcm mna soalan2 yg bakal ditanya when it is really the end of the world? questions that nobody can run away from i gasped. my heart felt heavy. it's from HIM that we came and to HIM we will return....

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mujahidah

jalan seorg mujahidah bkn la mudah namun tidak juga payah kerana Allah telah berjanji takkan dibebani seorg itu melebihi dari kemampuannya. teringat akan satu bait nasyid yg seringku dengar. bukan mudah bernafas dalam jiwa hamba.. semestinya tidak kerana syurga itu mahal harganya. redha Illahi yg menentukan segalanya. hati ini bukan la seperti Saiditina Fatimah, puteri Rasulullah dan bukan juga seperti Saiditina Khadijah, seorg mujahidah yg ternama. jauh sekali hatiku dari hati mereka.namun akan ku gagahi langkah ini. utk bergerak setapak dekat denganNya. belajar itu juga jihad ya ukhti, pesan sahabatku. ya, benar sekali....

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Rasulullah..how I miss you..

Rasulullah.. Will I ever be good enough to see you smiling back to me in jannah? Mampukah aku menyintaimu sepertimana engkau menyintai aku? Ya Rasulullah..how I wish you are here right now ...

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Ketenangan..

Ketenangan.. Bukan mudah utk merasainya.. Apatah lagi pabila diuji dugaan-Nya Namun itulah tujuan ujian Mendorong kita dekat pada Ilahi Bknnya lari dari cintaNya yg hakiki Saat tangan ditadah memohon pertolongan Saat diri tunduk penuh keinsafan Saat dirasakan tiada lagi harapan Saat itulah ketenangan datang Menyapa jiwa yang mungkin gersang Dan ketika itu tahmid diucapkan Merasai betapa besarnya nikmat ketenangan Ya Allah..ku mohon, jangan kau tarik nikmat ketenangan ini ya Allah...

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Ahlan Wasahlan to myself again

Assalamualaikum..n good early morning:) A LONG TIME. that's what I needed in order to find myself. What happened to me actually? Why did I stop writing blogs? The answer is simple but hard to answer. I simply lost myself. Sitting at home, working, not doing much of anything after spm caused me to lose myself. I don't know how to explaim it but what I do know is I felt empty and...away from HIM. I had great troubles back then but still my heart was running away from HIM instead of searching from HIM. Back then I did not know why. But...

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