Do I care?

Assalamualaikum
hello peeps!

oh my deary blog..u must be mad at me for leaving u unattended..deserted..
okay..ter'emo' sekejap. enough of that

you know, yesterday I just thought, why do people wear whatever they like?
say whatever they want
mingle with whoever they choose
do anything that they feel like doing?
why?
and why that they just don't care?
why they are so free and somehow seemed so happy though it's wrong
Infact, why sometimes, I feel like I don't care too?

I know. I'm a nobody. I can't say that they're wrong but if HE says it's wrong then, it is wrong...right?
I know I don't deserve to judge others either cause I'm just a mere human being who also err
I just thought, what if I choose not to care and what if I choose to freely do what I want. Will I be happier? More satisfied?Sometimes I just want to try not to care but I'm afraid and I hope I'll continue to be afraid. Who am I to decide what makes me happy when the Book of Guidance, the Quran says it all?

So I told myself..don't stop being a girl who care so much. Sometimes it's hard and painful too. But let's bare it here on earth and be happy in the world where 'happy ever happy' actually exist shall we?

my 10 min is up. EE is calling
Goodnite people
:)

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Alone

When u think u are alone
Remember that u are wrong

For Allah is always there

If you believe in HIM
More than anything

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You never can tell

assalamualaikum
anyio!

huhu.lama x menulis kan?
gomenasai neh

so
you never can tell
apakah itu?
tajuk lagu?movie?book?

nope
it's a theater! by bernard something2
can't remember..:P
KMB had a teater in dbkl yesterday and i was one of the ushers
the play was beyond awesome
KMB adapted "you never can tell play" and named it 'summer of serendipity'
it's sereNDIpity...not seredipity
staged in DBKL
in front of more than 500 audience
in front menteri and mara people
the havocacy was...ntah la..no words can describe it
the actors,actresses,dancers,muscians,props,choir n etc work superbly hard
no doubt about that



i know what most muslims would say
"TEATER???apakah??x dosa ka??"
haaa...
mai nk habaq
yeah..i can't deny that lots of things were wrong
were not right
x mengikut syarak
u can't even see islam in it

but those..i don't want to discuss because i know it's wrong
but the thing is i got to extract some positive things out of it
dah trpaksa jdi usherers kan.might as well get the better of it
hee:D

i was amazed at how awesome the crews were
the choreography was done by students
the lighting manager
the sound manager
the director
the designer
all were the students of kmb!
19 years old IB students. ib is already enough to drive somebody crazy
what more when you have to totally 'create' a play

i saw how they work
i saw how great minds do they have
i saw wonderful sets of skills
i realized what power do young people have
how they are valuable
if everybody can see what i saw
i believe u'll say the same thing

but!!
if only..it is used on the right path
saaangat la awesome!
they have strength that not many have
logam masing2 tu berbeza kn?

“Manusia seperti logam, terpilihnya mereka semasa jahiliyyah terpilih juga mereka semasa Islam, sekiranya mereka faham”


Saidina Umar sangatlah garang before dia memeluk Islam. and he stays the same after he did have Islam in his heart. the difference is. what he used his 'ketegasan' for.

Allah..created us to be special. and HE never asks us to throw it away.just use it on the right path. on HIS path.

dh jumpa logam masing2?
don't say u don't have one
if dah..
jom guna utk Islam?

jom:)

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Today

Today, I learn lots of new things that moved my heart. Things that I really need.What more can I say than thank you Allah?

I learn to be myself and still a muslimah. I learn to stay being the bubbly, crazy me and yet, know my boundaries. I feel free speaking english and loving it but still, never forget where I 'm from. When people mention the word muslimah we can only visualize one thing - girl in jubah or baju kurung or muslimah tshirt and tdung labuh. Is that it? not for me. To me, being yourself and being modest a.k.a sederhana is muslimah. If u are small and petite don't give yourself a hard time trying to wear tdung bidang 60 if tdung bidang 45 already covers your aurah perfectly. But still, feel free to wear tdung labuh if you feel you neded to. Play sports if you like. Be as funky as you want. But never ever cross the boudaries. Never ever let HIM go.

I learn to trust Allah not the hard work that I did. I'm trying to believe that HE really help those who help HIS religion. Time belongs to HIM. Every second we spent on dakwah has its berkat. I learn to make my goals clear. My purpose of life. It has to be solid or I'll definitely quit in the middle of journey.
Life's a climb but the journey is great. Right?

I promised to write this post in 10 minutes and time's up.:D

Tomorrow, I don't know what's waiting for me.
But let's start this journey shall we?
Whatever it is, bring it on!
We have Allah every second in our life

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let's start again

new year.2013

to all hopes that are lost.let's start hoping again
for myself that had drown, let's start breathing the air again
for all tears that we cried, let's start smiling again

whatever happened has happened
let it go
let start this all over again

finding Allah
the most merciful
and yet, still being me

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

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Change

Change. why is it so hard these days?
My heart aches. Really bad
Why do I keep falling down, making mistakes?

I screwed up. I got it
But why is it so hard for me to get up like I always do
I'm hurt. My heart must be thorn into pieces. So did I thought
But even if it did, I will still feel the pain
Now, even the pain is not there
All left is the feeling of anger and frustration.
My heart is not wounded. It becomes hard and cold. Like stone or ice.

I'm losing hope. I'm losing the grip
The worst part is I just keep watching myself do so. Not even trying.

I watched movies. They are like fairy tales.I yearn for my life to be one
Though I know, a tale is just a tale
The thing is, I need to grow up
Face the reality

I thought I've found myself, but I'm wrong
I'm still struggling to find a purpose of living
I had one before. I thought it was it. I thought I had hold on to it strong
Again,I was wrong.

I want to run away. But I know I'm not a coward
I want to face all the problems. But is my heart able to face it too?

For now, all I want to do is find a purpose back
Allah. HE is always there though sometimes I don't feel it
I know HE has all the answers.
I just need to work hard to get it

Have faith girl.

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love..sarangheyo:)

"I just don't get this couple thingy. well, I did it too back then but I realize it's really useless.there's no point whatsoever"

"take a chill pill girl..loving someone is not a crime"

"did I say so?"

"errr..no"

"I just think it is a waste of time.sure, waking up in morning with sweet messages in your inbox really makes your heart skip a beat. but..are we that easy to get?btw who knows how long it will last. I did went through that phase and I swear I was an idiot

"we are teens. sometimes we ended up doing stupid things. couple is just a small matter dear. don't take it too hard. cherish the moment of being in love, every teenage girl deserves to be happy and appreciated"

"wrong. we are muslim teens.that makes us different."

okayy,,it's in the middle of the night and I cant sleep so I have a feeling of writing something
and..suddenly this thing called love popped into my mind..random as usual:)


moment of truth. everybody, who is normal falls in love at least once in their life. i did, twice.i'm the kind of person that hardly falls in love with anybody but when I do.uh-oh. big trouble
nobody says that falling in love is a crime but how you deal with that feeling that makes the difference.

couple?that's a cliche topic to debate about.but, certainly it is not for me.people normally ask me why?a big why.why do I care so much?why do I refrain myself when others are enjoying their love life?
my answer is simple. because the one that loves me the best says I should not. Allah says I should not.
"La taqrabuzina"says the Lord in the holy Quran. Don't go near it. poeple debate how couple is not near to zina.

come on guys. don't lie to yourselves. we are not just talking about 'that' zina. our eyes, ears n etc should not go near it too. we should not look at that handsome face before we can legally do so. we can't listen to the voice that melt our hearts before the akad is done.

I have thousands other reasons and some of them are:
- girls that are easy to get are easy to forget
- I have thousands better things to do
- only one guy is worth it
- can i say..nisa' (girls) are just too special?
- I have not yet love HIM perfectly
- youth is not ti me to play around. we got bigger mission
- i will not die without a boyfriend
- couple is not a guarantee for a marriage
- angels in the heaven are way better looking :D
- it won't be fair to my future husband (whoever that is :P)
- muslimah..should be loved by those who put his love towards Allah above anything else,and those  who are willing to enjoy love life before marriage are not good candidates:)

there you go!that just a part of it.haha.no offense to anybody

I won't say it is easy to refrain but once you get your principles right, it is easier.
I won't say it does not hurt to leave a guy who loves you back because I too, shed lots of tears. but. it is worth it.
I can't say you must do it now.but gradually.

girls, it hurts, I know. I've been there but time really do heals the pain. it is painful yet possible. you'll break at first.heart shattered to bits and pieces. you'll find it hard not to say "happy birthday" on the date that you always did. you'll feel lonely when he is not there anymore to listen and be your guardian angel anymore. you'll find it hard not to smile when you see him as he walk by. sometimes, you'll feel at lost.

during those times. remember this. Allah is there for you. HE loves you more than you know. HE knows what's best for you. believe in that and don't worry, one day u'll feel that comfort again. your future husband is somewhere out there. be strong.don't be afraid. take a chance to open your heart to believe in HIM. one day, you will understand the reason why. InsyaAllah

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